when i'm alone

i been sitting here for so long
wasting time, just staring at the phone
wondering should I call you or not
and i realize you are not alone

your memories shine
your lip sings and smile
when i' m alone
when no songs haunt

you and i lie
you and i fly
you and i die
it's beautiful ly
when i' m alone
sitting alone in the stair
watching your hair
flying in the air.

mail to a fren (part II)

I'm fine happy
shining like evening sky
no worries for future
why should i be worried
when i'm getting my bread free
as long as i have words for my poetry
and lyrics to sing i'm happy
hope you are happy too
good to hear that you are serious about life
yeah but i'm not still
this heart never agrees with reality
and never practical
i am still in my wonderland
with my hands waving free in the air
thanks for mailing me

with love
akhu

jotting down everything i dont understand

i woke up
in the silence of morning mist
without any sleep,
i was lost in the deep
of the night
...................................

i was left alone facing the wall
as if i was the only drunk in this world
no one pays me for my existence
i look around saw a girl with a fake cake
offer me a peice of it
i know i dont want a shit of it
all i want is to fly high
all i want is to lie down
but no arms
except this old yellow pillow
...................................................

thousands of readers and critics
hundreds of fighters and lovers
and all the motherfuckers
listen to me reciting my mafking poetry
yeah sometimes about love
sometimes about prostitution
sometimes insomnia
sometimes protesting against everything
.....................................................

the men with armour of gold
tell the story of the acts of god
yeah! they have fans
and golden eggs by costliest hen
yeah! they have sent
me to school to follow them
like another fool to join the chain
but now i twist and turn the road
notice the air is too hot
to breath for my survival
yeah i have, too, no rival
......................................................
what the fuck am i writing
i dont know
.....................................................

i give up the hope of my own dreams
i try my best but i'm defeated
dreams often remind me im the loser
every night, it haunts me
I can't run and hide
my tongue is tied
the truth i can't speak
the walls are too thick
love dies love lies
broken promises like glasses
cut me into peices
the fingers unknowingly
searching for the right shot
to give me the final cut
............................................

hey girl
you left your sweet smile
underneath my pillow

hey girl
you thought i'm numb and blind
but i can figure out your color

hey girl
we belong under the same clouds
if you fly i can fly too

hey girl
your smile like a wall paper
of yellow daffodil asking me to pluck and suck..
........................................

dated 19th october 2006